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[28 Jun 2009|10:21pm] For once in my life... I would like to wear a colorguard uniform that isn't absolutley hideous. It wouldnt be SO bad if we didn't look like pirate wenches and if my uniform wasnt a size LARGE!!!! Really!? large!?!?! And wtf, why is everyone dying!? Bill Mays now!?!! WTF! CMNT

[21 Jun 2009|11:59pm] I dont know why I was trying to cram the remaining four classes I have to take to complete my major into this one year. I only need four. I can take one per semester. I'm a fool. With that being said, I was planning on take 18 credits again. Now, however, since I don't have to take an 18th Century Novel class (since I have 3 remaining semesters, after fall09) I may just take 15. I only need one more 18 credit semester to graduate on time. Which I can either do... or take a summer class. Im in good college shape. Even if I hate my college. I only have class on Tuesday and Thursday and I dont even have to go anywhere for two of the classes. (There are two screenings since im taking two film classes),but thats okay. That gives me extra time to work! Yay! (And not a jamba!) CMNT

[03 Jun 2009|08:42pm] I really wish I would have gotten away. Who needs this? CMNT

[31 May 2009|08:12pm] I will NOT NOT NOT NOT let this happen to me. No Nancy, Not Again. FTG. CMNT

fuck that. [03 May 2009|12:17am] Poll? Small Foot Tattoo? (Top, Right.) Medium-Large Leg Tattoo?? (Upper Outer Thigh, Left.) Content would be decided upon place. The Leg Tattoo has a million of ideas behind it. I need help! (3) CMNT

[29 Apr 2009|01:15am] I need to stop living my life trying to make other people happy. I dont even know what I want out of life anymore... I just do what other people want me to... (4) CMNT

[13 Apr 2009|11:58pm] I hate school. So. Much. (1) CMNT

[22 Mar 2009|02:11am] I cant sleep because I cannot stop thinking about colorguard and rollercoaster tycoon. (4) CMNT

asldkfj! [10 Mar 2009|07:47pm] IM EVEN MORE RICOCKULOUSLY BUSY THAN I WAS LAST SEMESTER! ALDJFLAKSEOIAWEGAUIGASDHASDJGHASKDJGASKHFAIWUFHIAG. Im constantly in a state of mad-panicked rush. I hate it! :( Help me, spring break! CMNT

[16 Feb 2009|11:14am] I feel like theres not enough time in the world to do everything you have to do vs. everything you want to do. Because everything has it's own limit. And that's upsetting. CMNT

[12 Feb 2009|09:45pm] I have a job! Yay!! (4) CMNT

[16 Jan 2009|11:18pm] I miss everything I used to do. Winterguard Cheerleading Other Things. :'( (4) CMNT

[07 Jan 2009|04:48pm] Because within the last year and a half I have passed out 3 times... I have to go to the cardiologist. Starting with a "carotid doppler" test. (or maybe its caritod..i dont think so..) which, after looking it up, is a test for narrowing in the arteries which give blood to the brain... and also causes mini strokes. And later on real strokes. Yeah, I feel good. (2) CMNT

[26 Dec 2008|05:48pm] Im a terrible person and I DO care. CMNT

[16 Dec 2008|08:10pm] [ mood | accomplished ] 18 Credit, All Over Semester. Fin. Asside from Communications... which is just a subject concept I apparently can't grasp, no matter how it's taught, I have sweet grades! (1) CMNT

[02 Dec 2008|07:44pm] I was just born the wrong gender. I was born an insensitive man. A man of few serious words. (7) CMNT

[18 Nov 2008|09:17pm] Life is silly. Like, one big joke. One awful perverted joke. Haha. Ha. (5) CMNT

[10 Nov 2008|01:45pm] i don't know. (2) CMNT

Surprise!! [11 Oct 2008|03:40pm] 3. 3. 3. 3. 3. 3. 3. 3. 3. 3. 3. 3. 3. 3. 3. 3. 3. 3. 3. 3. 3. 3. 3. 3. 3. 3. 3. 3. 3!!!! (4) CMNT

[07 Oct 2008|09:28pm] [ music | Velvet Underground ] I have to write a 5-7 page paper on Slave Narratives (I sometimes question my decision to major in English), but I am thinking about way too much stuff right now and have expressed my dilemmas to many people and must now express it on Livejournal. So that instead of mulling it over in my head, I can ramble about it here. Something good is happening. Something so good, I can't even describe it. But, it's causing a conflict of personal interest. My main goals were 1. transfer 2. work on getting back into music/figure out drum corps. Now, however, I wish to do neither. Here's some thoughts. 1. I hate this school. I hate having to wake up extra early to commute to class. I hate it. But I'm familiar with it. I have friends here (and they're pretty cool). And if I lived on college avenue (or off campus in NB) I know that things can be so much better. Now, I can stick it out for the rest of the year and make that move next year. And pray that it turns out the way I think it should (because all of my classes are on that campus, majority, anyway). Also, being that my dad is losing his job and my mom's job is weird with the bank take-overs, transferring to a more expensive school seems illogical (unless they were to give me more money). 2. Drum Corps. I have a love/hate relationship with doing it. I feel like I have fun when Im there, but when I think about it drum corps has caused me to undergo some completely miserable times. Emotionally, I've never been hurt so hard than by people I've met by drum corps. (I have made some of the greatest friends I'll ever have, but between tour this year and post-tour last year, I've never been so emotionally beat down). Physically, yes, I'm in al ot of pain as well because I'm an old lady, but it's such a great experience and when its all said and done, you come out wiser for the wear. I don't want to give it up because its a limited time activity (21), but I feel like maybe it is time to close that door... afterall, it hasn't really been as pleasurable as the delusions I subject myself to. I think that's the smart thing to do. I'd like to think that somewhere along the lines I would have come to these conclusions whether or not a fabulous guy walked into my life (by crazy dream-like circumstances). But I think maybe I ought to just stay where I am and let this play out. Maybe it'll be as good as it promises to be. And maybe I'll just have made another mistake, like usual. Plus, then I can work all summer and make the money I wish I had right now. (I pretty much wish I didn't march this summer because it was miserable on a personal level and now I'm struggling 18 credits and trying to find a job and now with this man-situation). Im drowning. But Im so happy. Stressed out & Euphoric. (4) CMNT

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